So I just sent in my Fashion Institute of Technology Academic History and Essay which officially completes my application for the term of Fall 2009. I don't know whether I have a good chance or a bad chance. Honestly, you can do all the analyzing in the world, sitting here looking at statistics, SATs, GPAs and you still will never know. This year, I've learned that it doesn't matter what college you're applying to or who you are; in the end, nothing is a sure thing and at the same time, nothing is impossible. It's hit or miss.

No letter of acceptance or rejection can validate us as students. I have never let a number define me and I'm not going to start now. I admit that I've been completely wrapped up in this entire FIT thing, but what it all boils down to is unfairness. It would be unspeakable if anyone ever had the balls to admit in a public forum or god forbid, Collegeboard itself, that college admissions processes are crap and perhaps the most arbitrary thing that exists in our educational system. Try wrapping your mind around the idea that your fate lies in the hands of another human being, a human being that could've had an eruptive argument with her husband just earlier that morning, a human being that could've picked the wrong hot dog stand for lunch just ten minutes prior to reading your personal statement (of hell) which inevitably led to his fleeing to the bathroom to relieve himself while he left your three months worth of work in shambles on the floor, or a human being that just hates the fact that your last name does not resemble his. It's ridiculous, to say the very least.

..the waiting commences..